You once said that everything happens for a reason. So whats the reason behind all these nonsense we've gone through?
Somehow I don't have a reason to keep everything in pace nor do I have a reason for you to keep your promises.

Now that you've entered my life, I would wished that you won't be able to get out from there, anytime.
I believe that there is a reason we ran to each other..
But, what matters is that are we destined to be one.

People were telling me how should I be.
Am I supposed to listen and act on it? Or should I just let it be.
I understand that they were for my own sake.
However, sometimes a voice asked me to follow my heart instead of listening to somebody else.

Believe it not, life is really unpredictable.
Perhaps, the next headlines would be me.
How fragile it is a life could be.
I cannot imagine my life without you.

Just few days you're not around. I can't imagine what would have happened to you when you're surrounded by some unwanted flies.
Because of the insecurity, I guess I've gone bonkers.

People been advising that I should leave this behind but, how?
The bond between us.. Is that to say, leave then just left it there?

-n-
Living in despair.

i missed your hugs.

i would love to have one or two a day...if possible.

im greedy. hehe. 

yeah, life is great if you have someone to go through the ups and downs with you regardless of anyhing..

have you ever thought of one day if ever the loved ones leaves you behind, what would you do. 

are we dying together....

i really wished you never find me back..
i thought i was okay..
i really thought so..
how can you come in and out so easily..
why there isn't any barrier...
why did i fell for you..
why...

i'm really too foolish to believe everything is true..
why did you mention in the first place..
if weren't for you, i won't be in this state..
it's all because of you..

i wanted to know the truth behind the lies....
please, tell me.

Please don't utter a word that you don't mean it.
It irritates me.

Now, I don't even know whether every single word you said is true.
Do something if you still wanna earn my trust.
I felt so insecure having you by my side.

I'm afraid I can't take it, someday.
Hence, breakdown.

Tell me! if you really mean it, boi.

Bypassers..

I guess this seems to be my silent listener.
And, I like it.
Just expressing what I wanted to.

Well. There you come to my life out of a sudden.. and now you're just leaving footprints behind.
Why are you ruining my life.
You stepped in, and now you choose to leave just like that?
Have you ever thought of how I would felt?
Are you just dropping by for a break?
Tell me!

You've played with it and seriously, it hurts.
How am I gonna mend it?
You know it's hard to sort out.
If you never had the intention in the first place, please don't do it!
Are you having fun playing?
It's not easy that we've came here.
And now, that's it?

What a life I have!
You tell me how can I sort this out?
How should I?
Why would I?
Where should I begin?

That's why I chose not to have start any freaking relationship!
Or perhaps, it's karma? Being the aftermath, I ended up with all these shit?
Is that what I've done in the past of say more than ten times and now I'm gonna face it more than that?
Is it I should regret for what I've done?
Is that so?

If we don't that step, will I be better off?
If it wasn't for this...
If you're not you.
If I took every opportunity I had.
Are we better off that way?

You and I unable to get through this either.
Hmmph...
I'm just too distracted at the moment that I couldn't concentrate a single thing.
How should I go through my papers?
Stop contacting me everyday.
I can't bear with the consequences.