Unexpected.

i never knew in this 22 years and half of lifetime, will occur such thing.
never did i know it will happen. all this while, i thought as long as i'm good to people, that's enough.
i don't know that i can befriended such person.
Framing this word never exist in my dictionary, at all!
now, i know it exists!

i'm kinda upset with this happening to me.
if you ask around, you know i barely have temper at all, nor will i simply make up stories just for gossips.
the first time ever , i've been so mad with someone.
first time ever i'm so upset on a friendship that had last for so many years.
but why, because of a girl whom you known for not long? towards someone you've known for so many years?

is this what we call friendship ?
today i've learnt, what is friendship!
now i know. this is what i got.
a broken ones.
i hate myself for being so naive all this while.

i used to be someone who's easily forgive anyone even they get me angry. an hour or day later i'll forgive and forget, and back to normal.
i wonder, will i able to forgive and forget this time?
even if you apologize, and ask for forgiveness.
should i?

till now i don't understand why.
eyes already in dehydration.
indeed a tiring day.
mentally.
and slightly, physically.

somehow, i'm still grateful for having some of my closest buddies of 15 years being so protective of me.
for all this while, from young till now.
you guys stand up for me, back me up no matter what.
i love you guys!